Thoughts

I've been trying to decide lately if I want to make this blog public. Public meaning actually telling people I'm doing it.

I don't know...I guess I just feel like if I knew people will read it, I might be less honest. Try to "fit in" more or say the "right" thing. And I don't want that. I want to just write how I feel or what I think. Not to sugar coat it or phrase it differently. In my first blog when I talked about seeing the world from behind someone else's eyes...I guess I just want to make sure that I'm honest through all of this. To not cover anything up.

I really feel like this year God is trying to teach me to be myself, my true self. And I feel like I've been able to do that on this blog and I don't want to stop just because I know people will read it. I suppose that comes from my own heart though.

Ahhh oh life. It's so interesting being human. Like, we're SO aware of ourselves and what we say and do and how it will be interpreted by the people around us.. I highly doubt any other creature is that self-conscious.

I just read over this blog...it's all over the place. Haha. That's kind of where my mind is at tonight though. Scattered. I'm not really sure what the point of this one was. Just getting out my thoughts I guess.

P.S. 11 days until London. :)