An Instrument of Peace

Man, I've really been lagging on this blog. Ever since I got back to APU, I feel like the writing facet of my life has just spiraled downhill. I blog like once a month and am always too exhausted to journal at the end of the day. Too many classes, too much homework, too many commitments. I wish I could just take a week off and go to Grand Lake and spend time with the Lord. Maybe this summer :)

It's been a pretty good week though. Tyler & I are going to Seattle in November!!!! That was probably the highlight of my week....buying those tickets. I honestly can't wait. Plus, I feel like it will give me a lot of direction in regards to transferring to SPU or not. I haven't been able to stop thinking about that school the past 2 years so I feel like I need to look at it again. So we're going up on a Thursday night, Friday will be spent visiting classes, meeting with counselors and professors, etc. And then Saturday & Sunday, I get to hang out with him in the city of Seattle! And Katie Hill and Megan are up there and I am absolutely THRILLED to see them both and hang out with them!! They came to APU a few weeks ago and it was a blast, so I can't wait for round 2! :)

Overall though, this week I've just felt happy. There was a lot of tension and conflict going on in my heart the past month and it was all finally resolved. I feel so free and just...I don't know...light, almost. Like a huge weight has been lifted and I'm able to just love my life again. It's really been wonderful. 

Also, I found this prayer the other day and wanted to share it with you. I thought it was very powerful. It's by St. Francis of Assisi

"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace, 

Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

where there is injury, pardon;

where there is doubt, faith;

where there is despair, hope;

where there is darkness, light;

where there is sadness, joy;

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;

to be understood as to understand;

to be loved as to love. 

For it is in giving that we receive;

it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life."