Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Finally getting nervous
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Home
Monday, December 21, 2009
Cool, Mom and Dad
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Learning How to Die
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I know the plans I have for you...
Okay, it’s official.
Next fall, I am transferring up to Seattle Pacific University.
Wow, it’s weird to say that. I am going to go to school in Seattle. Not Azusa. Seattle. I think it’s for the best. Well, I know it’s for the best.
It’s been a really long process, thinking about it, praying about it, figuring out logistics, deciding if I really could do it….but now that I’m finally here, I know this is right. For so many months now, I have been praying that God would give me peace and clarity about whatever I choose, whether to stay in Azusa or go to Seattle. Looking back, I feel like I’ve had that peace all along but thinking about leaving APU is hard. I have made a lot of wonderful friends here and I think it’s an absolutely incredible school. But going to Seattle is something I need to do for myself.
I have wanted to go to SPU and live in Seattle for almost five years now. And looking back, I can’t remember anything I wanted five years ago that I still want today. Other than getting married. J I just feel like, if this has been a constant desire of mine for that long, I need to give it a shot. Because I know myself and I know if I don’t go up there, I will ALWAYS wonder “what if?”
So, next Fall, I’m taking a leave of absence from APU and going up to Seattle. That way, if I get up there and hate it (which I don’t foresee happening, but you never know) I can always come back to APU really easily. But I have to go. I can feel my excitement building whenever I talk about it. I remember how long I’ve wanted this and I think…just go for it.
I think I’m also ready to get out of Southern California. Which I know is kind of humorous considering I’m going to spend four months in South Africa (AHHHH!!!) but I think I want to settle down here, and before I do that, I want to live somewhere else. Experience a different culture within the United States, actually have seasons, be even more independent from my parents than I am now…all of it just sounds so exciting. And my prayer for all of this was that if I’m supposed to go, that God would open the doors that needed to be open. And he opened every single one. Housing, classes, transferring units, transcripts, the minor I wanted, graduating in four years still….everything will work out perfectly.
It’s weird now though. These past few months, I had no idea this would be my last semester at APU. Well, on APU’s campus. Heading into finals week, this is my last week here. And as sad as it is, I can say that with complete peace.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
Lately, God’s plans have not been taking me down the path I would have predicted a year ago. It’s looking very, very different. But through it all, I have found this joy in the Lord that I’ve never known before. There is something so powerful about blindly following God and obeying His plan for you, even when you don’t understand it. I think that faith in Him can bring so much joy, and it’s a joy I have been blessed to experience lately. So, although I’m really sad to leave Azusa and it will definitely be weird to not be at this school any longer, God has given me a peace and a joy that helps me know it’s the right decision.
And I can’t wait to see what God’s future for me holds.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
He does come.
Roommate fun
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
8 days
- A whole month with my family
- A whole month with my best friends
- Katie Hahn's Christmas party
- The Greig's Christmas party
- Best friends (I'm really excited so it goes on the list twice)
- New Years Eve
- Christmas!!!!
- Walks on the beach/maybe going to the beach if it's warm enough??
- Snapper Jacks
Monday, December 7, 2009
For you are my hope...
It’s pretty amazing how deep the wound of gossip can go. It’s often disregarded as a small sin and something that isn’t that big of a deal, but it sucks. It really sucks. I think people just want to be included, to be able to say that they know what happened and contribute to a conversation that no one really needs to be part of. But those words hurt. One person says something, they tell three people, who tell two people, who tell a whole group and it eventually becomes so twisted.
I just want people to know the truth. Well, no. I just want people to not talk about it. It’s none of their business anyway.
I suppose I don’t really have the right to complain. Lord knows I’ve talked about people when I shouldn’t have. I think this whole situation though has made me realize how hurtful it can be. It’s made me realize why it’s a sin and how it affects those who are being talked about.
I’ve been praying lately that I could ignore all the comments people have made, and simply find peace in the Lord. People will always talk but my confidence must be found in Christ.
“Most blessed is the man who believes in, trusts in, and relies on the Lord, and whose hope and confidence the Lord is.” –Jeremiah 17:7
“For you are my hope; O Lord God, You my trust from my youth and the source of my confidence.” –Psalm 71:5
Weekend
What a weekend.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Pray for Daisy
Pray for Daisy.
It's such a simple statement, yet so powerful. Britt & Kate Merrick's daughter Daisy Love has been diagnosed with cancer, and I just spent the last hour reading through her entire blog, which you can read here. Reading about just the incredible miracles the Lord has performed and the courage of Daisy and her family...it is amazing to me. One thing that stuck out to me was an entry, only a sentence long, but so incredibly powerful. 5-year-old Daisy Love said this:
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
TOMS
P.S. Shout out to Shannon Snyder for teaching me how to do the links!! Thanks girl! :)
P.P.S. Yes, this is my second blog today. Oh well.
Okay, that's all! :)