What is the Point?

“I am so happy to be here! This is something I have been dreaming about for 5 years and now it’s actually happening! I have been praying about this for so long, and I just feel so confident that this is where God wants me to be right now.”

I have said those three sentences more times than I can count in the last month. People ask how I like it up here, if I’m adjusting okay, if I get homesick at all or if I still feel like it was the right decision. All of those statements are true. I do absolutely love it here. It’s completely surreal that this dream is coming true. I do feel confident that this is exactly where God wants me.

But then tonight, I hit this rut. I realized that I keep saying this is where God has me…but what am I doing with that? I have been so consumed with excitement about finally being here, that I have forgotten to pursue why the Lord wants me here. What relationships does He have waiting for me? What ways does He want to grow me through this newfound independence? How will I need to pursue Him more in order to fulfill the plans He has?

I want to be where the Lord has planned for me, but I also want to do what He has planned for me in that place. I don’t want to just rest in the fact that I’m finally here, and then do nothing differently. What is the purpose of me being here? What does God have in store for me in Seattle that couldn’t be accomplished in Azusa or Ventura?

What is the point of all this?

I hate to admit that this the first time I’ve really thought about any of this since moving here.

Hopefully now that the Lord has opened my eyes to it, He’ll continue to shape my heart. When this season is over in two years, I hope to look back and know that I pursued Christ and His plan for me with every ounce of myself. That my main goal wasn’t getting good grades or making a lot of friends, but truly embracing this unique time of growth and opportunity that He has provided.